Disclaimer: I really hope any word in this post makes sense haha. So bear with me.
Only a handful of people in my life know about my blog/my blog’s Instagram account, which is fine. They’re people who are friends and they don’t make fun of me or anything for having a blog. There were times during quarantine when I thought I should post my blog on my personal social media accounts/tell people I have a blog, but then I was able to talk myself out of it.
I went through a phase early this summer thinking that my blog/blog’s Instagram had to be perfect: that I needed to write about certain things or post certain pictures, and it was unnecessarily stressing me out. So in the middle of July, I had a pep talk with myself and said that Strikeouts + Sprinkles is for fun, I don’t make any money off of it so I don’t have to worry about meeting goals/making certain numbers, and I can do whatever I want.
On any Strikeouts + Sprinkles (S+S) platform—blog, Instagram, or Twitter—I feel like I can really be myself. I can write about how much I hate running, my many many trips to the library, or that I recently started drinking coffee. I’m much more willing to share those things on S+S than on my personal social media accounts.
Not that people who follow my personal accounts would make fun of me or think I’m stupid—at least I hope not—but I don’t know if it’s because my followers are a weird mismatch of people that I feel like no one would really care. People who follow me are old friends from high school, friends from college, internet friends I’ve made along the way (I used to be pretty active on Tumblr in high school and had a small friend group, so I guess it’s not too surprising that I have my WordPress friends now), and current important people in my life. And I know that the people who follow S+S on its platforms are vastly different, but we all sorta have one thing in common: a WordPress blog.
Sometimes IRL I feel like I have to section myself off: like I can only talk about running with a few people, only a couple of people can stand me yelling about sports, and I think people are generally aware that I read???
On here, I don’t have to dissect different parts of my life. I feel like I can truly be myself with S+S and it’s sometimes a better capture of what’s going on with me/what I’m thinking/what I’m into than what I tell people in my life.
So I guess the moral of the story here is this: thanks. Thank you all for being such great internet friends and letting me be myself on S+S. It’s refreshing, and although sometimes I feel like I don’t have too much to write about right now, I know that I can always come here and just ramble about anything.
Does anyone else feel this way? Or am I just alone with my thoughts too much?