I think about this sometimes, and it’s kind of crazy.
You don’t realize it at the time, but looking back you can see how you had a choice and what your decision was. And how that decision affected everything else you’ve been through.
In high school, I quit jazz dance lessons after three months. What if I didn’t? During my last two years, I managed the baseball team. What if I never reached out to the coach? I probably wouldn’t have met all of the guys and probably wouldn’t haven bought so many bags of Goldfish crackers.
What if I went to a different college? I was accepted to five and chose Western New England. What if I went to my second choice instead? I definitely wouldn’t have had the friends I did. I would have been involved with other organizations and clubs on whatever campus I was on.
Would I have the job I have now? What if I didn’t intern the summer before my senior year? What if my ex and I never broke up and I moved to southern Connecticut like I thought I would after graduation?
The more you think about it, the more everything seems to be connected. If I didn’t do X, then Y wouldn’t have happened. Now I know I can’t be 100% sure one thing wouldn’t happen if I did something different, but I can assume so.
It makes me wonder now what choices I’m making that could affect other things that happen to me in the future. I guess I’ll have to wait and see, right?