I had been on a good streak of my anxiety not bothering me, but it acted up toward the end of last week. There was no impending doom, and I was still able to go about my daily routines, but it was me overthinking things and spending too much time in my head. It can feel pretty lonely, though, like these dark clouds are just hanging around me, fogging up my better judgments, and making me think the worst.
I’m feeling better today. Yesterday I got out of the house, and my parents and I took our dogs for a walk since it was about 40 degrees and sunny out. It would have been a good day for a run, but I wasn’t going to go for a walk and a run. But it was nice to breathe in the air. I also spent my Sunday afternoon watching a Red Sox spring training game. NESN has been showing the weekend games, which is nice because I’m home to watch them. It’s just calming to watch the game, even though these don’t count. Spring training games bring the hope that warmer weather and better things are coming.
I’m incredibly tired of winter, and I’m not sure if the cold and dark weather is putting a damper on my mood. I always feel better once spring comes and the weather is better. I read more outside, and I’ll definitely be going for runs.
Since my anxiety hasn’t been as bad as it used to be, I’ve sort of forgotten my coping methods. There is one that I use to calm myself down, but I need to find ways to either distract myself or change my thoughts so that I can focus on what’s in my control or what’s actually real and not just things in my head.
I’m hoping this week is better, and I can get back into a good routine.