There are two main things of writing that I do: this here blog and fiction writing. I’ve been writing as long as I can remember and probably why I decided to get two degrees in communication. (During my senior year, I’d crank out 15-page papers in like three days. Of course, I spent most of my nights at the library and also watched all nine seasons of Scrubs before they took it off of Netflix.)
But not a lot of people in real life—not that this blogging world we’re in isn’t real life, but I mean people I’m friends with not from the Internet—know that I actually have my blog or write fiction in my spare time.
I think two people know about my blog, and I never told them; I used to share blog links on my personal social media accounts, so I’m assuming that’s how they found it, which is fine. I think ~two people know I write fiction, and this includes one of the two people who know about my blog.
I feel like writers fall into one of two categories: either everyone knows you write or no one knows you even know how to string words together. I fall in the second one. And I’m not sure why.
Everything I write and post on here is pretty much how my life actually is, and I don’t post anything bad or mean. So it’s not like I’m hiding things from people. Maybe because it feels like the blogging world is different. Or when people know that you’re a “blogger” they assume that all you do is post pictures of yourself or assume you’re some sort of influencer. Sometimes I think blogging gets a bad reputation? I wish I could be more open about my blog with others.
I’m the only person I know who writes fiction. Unless my friends are closet fiction writers like I am. I’ve always made the assumption that people would think I’m weird for writing fiction. Or think that I’m just working on my screenplay. (I’d have to spend more time in a Starbucks for that to happen.)
Maybe I feel more motivated to blog because I know—for the most part—I’ll get feedback from you guys via likes or comments. I can tell if a post resonated with people, and sometimes the ones I don’t think will get a lot of comments actually do, and I like interacting with you guys.
When it comes to writing my story, I just feel like I’m typing into a Google doc, and I’m not getting any feedback. It’s just me and the screen. Me scrolling through the “big doc” as I call it—the one where the entire story lives—and wondering if this will be worth it. I write each chapter in a separate doc so that I don’t keep re-editing what I’ve already written and put in the big doc.
Then I start to get into my own head and think about the what-ifs or compare my writing to the books I read and then I feel discouraged. I think I’d be open to sharing my work in progress with someone just so I could get some sort of feedback rather than it just be me wanting to pull my hair out. I know it’s possible to get published, but after going through a year of job rejection, I’m not sure if I’m mentally stable enough to go through the process of sending my work to publishers.
Maybe just a start is to keep working on them and start reaching out to trusted friends to read them and give me feedback. I still have time to get my act together when it comes to fiction writing. I don’t need to have a book published by age 25. (That would also be impossible as I turn 25 this May.) But you know what I mean. Eventually, when I’m more stable in my life as an adult, I’d like to look into publishing.
Plus it’s hard to find the time to sit down and work on a chapter. It might go back to the whole “I can’t do everything at once” thing. I’m trying to work on it at least two times a week, but I want to give it the attention it deserves.
Do people in your real life know about your blog/other writing projects? How do you talk about your writing to others?